Zozo's

domain of escapade  the trickery of loki  going under the pretense of a peaceful stream  i hold ye in my arms and close to my heart you clung to me as i got breathless  you suffocate me you hurt me, my love.  you plunge your knife into my chest further the more i bled, the more you smile my pain becomes your happiness everything becomes grey and I lose my senses  am i catastrophising again?  alas, my greatest love it hurts.. as the knife plunges even further into my bleeding chest  i held my last breath as I scream inwards  "i hope to see you in hell" 

hey there, why do you do this to yourself?  why would you throw yourself out and act the fool?  i ought to scald you  i ought to scratch you  keep fucking up. i dare you. keep fucking up.  but why.... why.... why...would you do this to yourself?  have you no grace for yourself?  have you no shame? love yourself more...please smile by yourself more  why are always so lonely?  is your loneliness infectious? why do you spread your disease like a vermin you pest. colour yourself brown because that's what you ought to be  a nobody.  please... please... be nice to me be kind to me be good to me why can't people just be kind??? why is the world such a horrible place? i ought to burn you to death  i ought to torture you until you feel every inch of pain I have felt all my life. but...please be kind to me. please be kind. even if I'm not worthy.