"city of stars and dreams, come see me take my withering soul out of the abyss and drench my thirst love my weary earthly body with thy warmth and beauty come fill this restless mind with thy bouts of intellect and wit clean this soul with thy holiness and sanctitude" i lie on the kitchen floor withered as i look on hopelessly searching and searching staking myself in the heart like the undead living but not alive i ground my sadness and filth onto the city of stars and dreams i lay on the maggot filled bed, unable to sleep the remains of my parents putrid and stinging to the senses i slap, scratch and sock so i could be able to rest, for once. i filled my dreams with creatures who horrify and unsettle but finding myself a home in their loneliness their sharp teeth filled with blood, bile and filth their stench and reeking scent i find myself belonging to them more than i ever did here.