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A favourite person

 

What is favourite?

Preferred one of the other or others.

How lucky is someone who has a favourite person

Or the person who is someone’ favourite person?

What is the use of someone who has a favourite person?

Just someone who is beloved and cherish endlessly and unconditionally

Someone is their first for everything and anything

By choice;

By one’s very own choice.

The act of having a favourite person is a universal experience

How beautiful it is to love and choose someone over anything and everything

And how gratuitous it is to have someone loving and choosing endlessly

Endlessly.

 

I for one have never felt like I am someone’s favourite

Nor have I felt like having anyone as my true favourite

I have been chosen as a “favourite” for conditional and circumstantial reasons

Ever since I was little

But it is alright, I bear no ill will or bitterness

I do know that I, for one was not a very pleasant and “chooseable” option

For a friend

Maybe, I still am.

Therefore, I harbor no hate and I am content with that.

 

I mustn’t be tactless and selfish to say that I wasn’t anyone’s one of their favourites

Because I was

And I still am, possibly.

And I am grateful

And the same from me to them.

But to be someone’s favourite, I have never experienced that

I do admit that I used to fight for affection, devotion and love I never got to have

I do admit that I inappropriately went out of my way to gain friendship I never achieved

I do admit that I have lost respect for the version of me who chased and chased yet received nothing.

But it is alright, I forgive myself

I forgive them too.

It is okay to not be okay and yet, it’s also not okay to be “okay”

So...I let it go.

 

I have never thought I would ever be a first choice for anyone

Romantically, platonically, etc.

But looking at me and how I am, I would not blame the world for that.

But for the first time,

I am his favourite choice,

He loves and chooses me over everything and anything

He loves and chooses me unconditionally and endlessly

How lucky am I

How beloved and cherished am I

And I to him;

 

I act like I do not care and that it doesn’t affect me all my life

But now that I have felt and realized it

There is no greater love than being

Unconditionally loved by your very own favourite person.

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