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And So, I Rise


The world becomes brighter
as I push myself to crawl out
of the abysmal circle
I once willingly let myself plunder into.

My eyes, once dim, now grow curious and vibrant—
a smile finds my lips
as I breathe in the crisp, forgiving air.

The labyrinth I never willed myself to leave
begins to fade behind me,
its walls crumbling slowly, steadily,
as I inch forward.

My crimes—cleansed.
My pain—quieted.
My sins—released.
I become light again,
free and agile.

My wounds remain,
but they remind me I have loved
with all I had.

With a bruised soul and a battered body,
I gave and gave,
surrendering all that I wanted for myself.
And I loved—
oh, how I loved.
I loved so fiercely
that I willed myself to disappear in it.

I lost my way,
knowingly,
for a yearning
that never quite returned to me.

I walked and worked for decades,
hoping
and hoping—
until one day,
I simply stopped.

And then,
I saw myself.

Not the self I longed for others to see—
but me.
Simple, old me.
And I found peace in her.
I found gratitude in her.

So with all the love and happiness
one soul can carry,
I whisper now:

Thank you for everything.
Here I go.

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